My Visual Representation
When my English teacher told me that I had to find an image that describes me, I thought it was going to be the hardest thing in the world. Because I don't know who I am, I don't think anyone really does know who they are. I think we wear so many masks, like with the teacher's you act like the smartest person ever, with the jocks you're a sports expert, your parents you act like the virgin Mary and with the boy you act you act like a dummy, so we have all these masks pile one another that, we sometimes forget what's really underneath. But after long nights of staying up trying to figure out who I am, this is it. I am a little kid's jewelry box with crayons, a tree, broken clay hear, a calculator, and a church bracelet inside.
The crayons is one of the biggest part of me. Crayons represent art, imagination, drawing, creativity. That's exactly what I am, all of those things. My mother once shared a story with me that when I was a kid I would scribble all over the walls, and no matter how many times I got yelled at, I never stopped. One day when they yelled at me my dad turned to my mom and said "this kid is going to be an artist". He was right. Many think that art is something someone with no money or intelligence does, but that's not true. I'm fascinated with art and the imagination. My love for art, my creativity to make a old blue phone booth out of cardboard is the thing I love the most about myself. I AM a crayon.
The tree is a symbol for family. Many people my age go out Saturday nights, party, with friends and do drugs but you will always find me at home watching a movie or TV with my family. I honestly have no shame because I love my family. Because eventually the partying and friends disappear and in the end the ones left is family. My family isn't perfect but who's is? I have small characteristics from family members, both physical and personality wise. I have my mother's eyes and her loud laugh and friendliness. I have my father's nose but also his wiseness and seriousness. My family is the roots to my tree.
The broken clay heart represents my heart and struggles. Life sucks.... A LOT. But I've learned to realize that that's what life is about, climbing the mountain no matter how many times you fall. I've had my heart broken many times fights with my family, loosing a friend, loosing a boyfriend, not making it to the finals in swimming, failing a class and many other times. But just when I'm completely shattered and I'm sure I can not find all the pieces and glue them back together, I do. Sometimes I have a lot of things to fix them up and other times I have little to fix it up with. But point being, I always find someway to get back on my feet again and move along.
The calculator means intelligence. Not to be cocky but I am VERY smart. Especially in math which is why I choose the calculator in the first place. I have no idea how I'm very smart but I'm not even complaining. I love understanding what the teacher is talking about and getting a perfect score on my quiz. Its part of who I am. I believe my intelligence is the greatest gift one can ever have because when you're smart, the possibilities are endless.
The church bracelet is faith. I am catholic and do have a close relationship to god, but don't get that mixed up with religiously strict. I do have a close faith but of course sometimes I wear maybe too short dress or lie here and then but that doesn't mean I'm going to hell. Since I was a kid my family has always been catholic and I guess I was born into it, I didn't get to choose but I don't care. I used to hate going to church and acted sick now and then but then something amazing happened in April 2013. Now I can say I actually enjoy going to church and pray when I need help. I believe. Now I'm proud to say my faith is a big part of me, and I'll say it loud and proud.
The last thing that represents me is the jewelry box itself. This isn't just any jewelry box, I've had this since I was 5 and yes It has chipped off and stopped playing music but I've held onto it no matter what. This old box represents my childhood. Yes I may be 17, driving, applying to college, with a boyfriend, watch MTV, babysit, and do other things but I'm still child at heart. I still get excited when I see a see-saw at a park or when the teacher lets us color. Maybe its bad but I don't care because I believe that being a child is one of the most happiest times of your life, not having to worry about anything. I'm not immature and I am responsible but sometimes it feels nice to run around, roll down the grassy hill, laugh, and just enjoy life. And I'm still growing, I might not be 4 feet anymore but I got a long way to go and I'm still learning and growing day by day. Finally, it means that no matter how much time passes by, to never forget who you are and where you came from. As long as you remember that, then everything will be alright.
The crayons is one of the biggest part of me. Crayons represent art, imagination, drawing, creativity. That's exactly what I am, all of those things. My mother once shared a story with me that when I was a kid I would scribble all over the walls, and no matter how many times I got yelled at, I never stopped. One day when they yelled at me my dad turned to my mom and said "this kid is going to be an artist". He was right. Many think that art is something someone with no money or intelligence does, but that's not true. I'm fascinated with art and the imagination. My love for art, my creativity to make a old blue phone booth out of cardboard is the thing I love the most about myself. I AM a crayon.
The tree is a symbol for family. Many people my age go out Saturday nights, party, with friends and do drugs but you will always find me at home watching a movie or TV with my family. I honestly have no shame because I love my family. Because eventually the partying and friends disappear and in the end the ones left is family. My family isn't perfect but who's is? I have small characteristics from family members, both physical and personality wise. I have my mother's eyes and her loud laugh and friendliness. I have my father's nose but also his wiseness and seriousness. My family is the roots to my tree.
The broken clay heart represents my heart and struggles. Life sucks.... A LOT. But I've learned to realize that that's what life is about, climbing the mountain no matter how many times you fall. I've had my heart broken many times fights with my family, loosing a friend, loosing a boyfriend, not making it to the finals in swimming, failing a class and many other times. But just when I'm completely shattered and I'm sure I can not find all the pieces and glue them back together, I do. Sometimes I have a lot of things to fix them up and other times I have little to fix it up with. But point being, I always find someway to get back on my feet again and move along.
The calculator means intelligence. Not to be cocky but I am VERY smart. Especially in math which is why I choose the calculator in the first place. I have no idea how I'm very smart but I'm not even complaining. I love understanding what the teacher is talking about and getting a perfect score on my quiz. Its part of who I am. I believe my intelligence is the greatest gift one can ever have because when you're smart, the possibilities are endless.
The church bracelet is faith. I am catholic and do have a close relationship to god, but don't get that mixed up with religiously strict. I do have a close faith but of course sometimes I wear maybe too short dress or lie here and then but that doesn't mean I'm going to hell. Since I was a kid my family has always been catholic and I guess I was born into it, I didn't get to choose but I don't care. I used to hate going to church and acted sick now and then but then something amazing happened in April 2013. Now I can say I actually enjoy going to church and pray when I need help. I believe. Now I'm proud to say my faith is a big part of me, and I'll say it loud and proud.
The last thing that represents me is the jewelry box itself. This isn't just any jewelry box, I've had this since I was 5 and yes It has chipped off and stopped playing music but I've held onto it no matter what. This old box represents my childhood. Yes I may be 17, driving, applying to college, with a boyfriend, watch MTV, babysit, and do other things but I'm still child at heart. I still get excited when I see a see-saw at a park or when the teacher lets us color. Maybe its bad but I don't care because I believe that being a child is one of the most happiest times of your life, not having to worry about anything. I'm not immature and I am responsible but sometimes it feels nice to run around, roll down the grassy hill, laugh, and just enjoy life. And I'm still growing, I might not be 4 feet anymore but I got a long way to go and I'm still learning and growing day by day. Finally, it means that no matter how much time passes by, to never forget who you are and where you came from. As long as you remember that, then everything will be alright.