School has begun to get tougher, I'm starting to feel the stress and honestly I'm beginning to regret signing up for so many clubs and difficult classes. I have bit more than I can chew, but there is one thing that keeps me going; seeing others take on double than I am and they're just fine. Time has flied by so quick, it amazes me its already October, but then again looking at it as a whole.... I can't believe it's barely October. The other day in class there was talk about Job Shadows, I remember when my older sister went off to do hers, felt like yesterday and now here I am about to do mine. The problem is I still don't know what I want to be. It feels as if whatever we choose that it's set in stone and can never be broken, that is what scares me. I wish i could go back to freshmen year and start over again, try harder and go through every job possibility. Of course I have some idea of what I wish to be, an accountant:) I'm great with numbers and the class seems easy but the down part is I don't want to be in a boring office on a computer all day. If I could be anything it'd be a video editor, its my passion; art has always been my passion. But I've learned that passion does not pay the bills. I remember when I was a freshmen and I would look at the seniors so amazed, I believed being a senior must have been grand and how I wanted time to fly so my turn would come soon but never in a million years would I have known how scary it actually is. Freshman's 5 hour-long SAT tests, writing essays for scholarships, doing a job shadow, raising your GPA, applying for scholarships, or writing 3 essays in a week. I would love to have to change in the cold locker room and run a mile in PE rather than listen to how a bill is made into a law. I swear I have such boring classes, sometimes I think that I should have rewarded myself for working hard throughout my sophmore and junior year by taking entertaining electives rather than trigonometry or Spanish 3. |